I Don't Have a Father...

I'm tired of looking in the face of little boys and seeing a void.  Little boys acting out in search of the attention that they don't receive at home.  


It grieves me, that as an educator, I see so many troubled children, who lack a "Father" or "Father figure" in the home.  


Today in school, the homework assignment was to write about your Dad.  Do you know how many blank stares sat on the faces of these small children?  One boy said,  "I don't have a Dad."...another boy said, "I only see my Dad like once a year." and another boy said, "I don't have any positive male figures in my life".  This saddened me.  An earlier assignment was to write about your Mom and everyone was able to turn in at least two paragraphs of things that made their Moms special.  


I actually had to get in front of the class and say, "If your Dad is not in the home, then write about your uncle, an older cousin, your grandfather or any other male figure that you look up to".  


This is so crazy to me.  This "DeadBeat Dad" thing is becoming an epidemic (if it's not already *sigh*) and it's detrimental to the outcome of the children this epidemic leaves in its path.  


I know the "absence of fathers" is on a case by case basis.  Some children do lose their Father to death, some children lose their Father due to their Mother's bitterness and disdain for their Father but the majority of the children out here have nothing more than sperm donors.  Some Fathers just don't want to take care of their responsibilities...they come up with every excuse in the world why they don't want to be in their child's life.  


Child support is good but if you are not in your child's life physically then even your 17% means nothing.


Little boy's need their daddies, just like little girl's need their daddies.  It's enough already.  The children are the ones who are suffering.  I see it everyday.  


If we had more Father's in the home maybe there would be less jails and less promiscuity.  


I NOW see why God created the institution of marriage and why he wanted us all to be virgins before becoming one with our spouse.  If we would have done things God's way there would be less Maury Povich Shows and less Baby Mama/Daddy drama but I digress...

DEATH to Procrastination!

UGHHHHHHHH! I am such a procrastinator.  Lately I find myself doing A LOT of NOTHING!  *FAIL*.  I absolutely detest this about myself.  


I want to be done with procrastination for once and for all, that is why I am going to make a "To Do List".  Everyday (the evening before "D" day), I am going to write/type out the said list and IMPLEMENT the things on that list the next day.  I am going to PUSH myself to do it and stop being so LAZY (there I said it)!  UGHHHHHHHHH!  Slothfulness is the root of my demise *tears*.  I have to get it together before I find myself like 50 and haven't done NADA with the gifts and talents that God has given me.  


I mean don't get me wrong, I have done SOME things with the gifts and talents that God has given me BUT I know me and I know I HAVE NOT gone where I know HE wants me to go.  I have been playing serious games and that's not cool. *sad face*


I think FEAR plays a MAJOR part in my procrastination. *shutters*  I don't know what is wrong with me but I have to stop the madness NOW before it inevitably turns me into a failure. 


I am TIRED of talking a "GREAT" one and NOT doing.  I have to stop this mess *pops self on the hand*.  I am not getting any younger although I look about 8 years old, if I do say so myself *bats eyelashes*...LOL.  Nah but, something has got to give!  


I keep thinking about the past (in regard to my gifts and talents) wishing I would have done things sooner but I know I can't live in the Woulda, Coulda or Shoulda's world.  The time is now....so with that being said...


I will start tomorrow...LOL

Walking Dead...YIKES!

Lately, a lot of people (friends) whom I was close with B.C. (before Christ/before I got saved) have been on my mind...


When I first accepted Jesus as my Lord and Savior, I told everyone about my new found love.  Some of my friends thought I was doing too much and others felt like I was judging them "/.  This really bothered me because my intentions were NEVER to try to shove my new relationship with Christ down their throats and/or judge them.  It's just that I found the secret to eternal life and I wanted them ALL to share in that secret.  Well really, it wasn't a secret it has always been here but I was just too blind to see it.  The light had FINALLY come on for me and I wanted my friends (and those I loved) to experience that same feeling.  It's like knowing that a friend is DYING and not doing ANYTHING to save them *sigh*.


I also found out who my real friends were when I accepted Christ.  All the friends that I had smoked, drank, gossiped and clubbed with didn't call as often or come by and I know why.  It's because we no longer had anything in common *sad but true*.


When I was in the world, before Christ, I knew OF Jesus but I didn't know Jesus (big difference).  A lot of people that I was close with, believe in Jesus Christ but are content with where they are in their lives.  They are content with doing things that are contrary to God's Word because they have no real FEAR of God.  The Bible says in Proverbs and I am paraphrasing, "The fear of the Lord is wisdom".  If there is no real fear of the Lord then there is no knowledge of the Lord to acknowledge him.  (I hope that makes sense).  This knowledge brings obedience...obedience to God's Word. If you LOVE someone, you should have no problems obeying or listening to them and the same goes for GOD.  If you love him then obey him...keep his commandments and we can only keep his commandments through Jesus Christ.  


I am NOT perfect by any means but GOD does not use perfect people, he perfects the people he has chosen.


I pray for my old friends often, not often enough, but every time I think about them.  Often I see people who I grew up with, went to school with and worked with and just see DEATH...a zombie.  They may front like they living it up but I know inside they are incomplete...how I know is because I was the Walking Dead too!  Fronting for people but inside I was dying.  A lot of people may not admit this but deep down you know it is true.  I don't care how many pair of Christian Louboutin's you have, Gucci, Louie and Prada bags you have, none of those things will ever fill the void where JESUS is suppose to be.  I know because I been there...all of those things are temporary pleasures, they don't last.  Why do you think so many "rich people" jump off of bridges?


Bottom line is I hope all my friends and unsaved family members come to Christ...I even pray for my enemies to come to Christ.  All I can do is my part by spreading the Gospel message and praying that the seed falls on good ground.  God wished that none would perish but that ALL would have eternal life.