Soooo I JUST found out that I am severely anemic *sad face*. Well I always knew I was anemic but NOT to the point of NOW needing a blood transfusion for my impending surgery. UGH! Now this is BLOWING MINES!! WHY! I went for medical clearance today and they informed me, after having given blood yesterday, that my blood levels or whatever the medical jargon is, is 7.8. The norm is like 12 or something. *yikes* Needless to say, I have been walking amongst you all as a living ZOMBIE. Oxymoron much?? So NOW I know why I have been feeling dizzy and lightheaded AND always extra sleepy. I can't really blame anemia for my love of sleep although I would like to *shrugs*.
I don't like the idea of having somebody else's blood circulating in my body, touching my organs and high fiving all 206 of my bones. *yuckers* That makes me feel defiled in a way. I am trying to see if my mother will give me a pint of her blood but I don't know if we have time to get her tested and drained of 1 pint of her blood before next week. *sigh*
I dead asked my doctor if the blood was clean. Shoot, I don't play that mess. She said the blood is test and clean of HIV, Herpes, Hepatitis and all the other "H"'s. Geez Louise...WHY.
Man I am already a little anxious about the surgery now I have to deal with this blood transfusion prior. UGH. T'is life though. I know regardless of anything that GOD has a plan and I am in his plan. I don't have answers to a lot of my "why's" and I don't need to know the answer (although I would like to), I just have to TRUST God.
With my surgery coming up, it makes me put a lot of things into perspective. I see things differently and I value time more. Things that would easily upset me don't because at the end of the day none of that stuff even matters.
Time is short and so is life. I'm not sweating small stuff anymore. I need to live for me. I have a purpose to fulfill. Let's GO!
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